T-rex in the stomach

Hmm...

I arrived late today at the office. Blame it to the after subuh over-napped!! I've escalated some issue with the data that being provided to me yesterday. My team mate a.k.a Mentor was waiting for the client's feedback and I am so ensured that I won't do any damage being this late. And fortunately I was right.

So here I am sitting at my desk continuing work and the day goes by like usual. Only that I skipped my lunch to compensate my lateness (hey, I'm a responsible person OK!!) and also because around 4.30PM I will be meeting my appointed bank personnel that has been in charge on my housing loan all this while from Muamalat bank. He's going to hand me the offer letter from the bank and I can use it to withdraw the EPF Tabung Dua money to pay for the remaining 6.5% down payment of the house. I just hope I could make it before the agent call me to sign the SNP form =].

Eh!!! Just remembered I brought some nut cookies that I bought from my hometown last weekend (taking out from the bank now and start munching) ^^

My house loan has been approved, Alhamdulillah and while praying that my baby would take his position at that pelvic area, we also have to plan our financial accordingly, taking so much thing into account so that we won't be shocked with mouth wide open after the 2 new responsibilities are right before us begging for attention =p.

Some asked me whether I'm so waiting for the moment when I being a dad for the first second of my life, whether I'm so happy, nervous, tak sabar and all other feelings you could think of. Ya, I have all those feeling lingering inside my stomach and there are not just butterflies flying inside there, but they are few t-rex lurking as well =].

When I read about how a teenage girl was caught making sex with her boyfriend after her parents went out for a while leaving her alone..my hair went up man. I really don't want my children ended up like that. Would I be a good father? Would I be able to educate my children? Would I be the best example so that my children wouldn't say "stop the rubbish Papa..we are like this because of you".

Oh Allah~~~

I'm so afraid man. I know that I'm least of a good man and far from being pious. But I always try to be one my Allah. Honestly I am trying and keep on doing it. Please protect my family from the evil attentions of anyone and guide me so I could do the same to my family...

Seriously sooo..afraid!!!!


Well, people said don't rush things. Don't think too much of what would happen in the future. So I guess I'm gonna follow that piece of advice. I will try my best to raise my kids, protect them and love them as best as I could. I will try to adopt the way of my Mom whom raised me all these years.


My Allah..

I'm gonna be a dad!!!!