Weeks before, one day when I was lazing around on my mattress, I thought of changing my blog name. "Trudge Along my Nothingness" is actually the second name of my blog after I changed it from "Itching Fingers". It was after 3 months of blogging I decided to change it.
I chose to use TrudgeAlongMyNothingness when at that point of time I feel like I'm a very minute being trying to live my life in this world, establishing my career, my love journey and everything. In a way, I felt so insignificant. That's when I think TrudgeAlongMyNothingness or in malay "Berjalan dengan payah sepanjang hidup yang tidak ada apa-apa" is the best name for my blog.
I didn't have any reader at that time, any blog friends, I was just being hired by the company which I know less about it, I just have my Benaffey that could only run 90km/h,I didn't have laptop, digital camera and so lots more. It's a very suitable name for my blog.
So I trudge along my path to achieve and taste a bit of achievement, acknowledgment, love and lots more. Slowly my blog attained some readers. Albeit of the fact that those first readers haven't being here anymore, I gain more and more friends. The same goes to my life. I bought a set of DSLR which at the beginning I thought it was just a wild never-gonna-be-accomplished dream, I have my Wardina (a 150 FZ bike), the company gave me a laptop, I have a car and I have a wife who is sooo understanding, she makes less fuss to compare with the rest of the girls out there.
It came across my mind one day to change my blog name because my life has more than a thing. It's not a mere nothingness that I've tasted before. I even shared the thought with my best friend Ayman. And his response was "betul beb".
But then, I came back from the office to know that my DSLR and my company laptop have been stolen. Crushed and felt so heavy under my butt, I was completely struck by the fact that I've just lost my 3 years of effort. It's a heavy punch right to my balls.
Hence, the intention to change my blog name, remains a thought. Maybe later when I managed to get rid of the memory (which I think so impossible at the time being) of owning my 'dream', I would change it to something else..
This is what it means by trudging